A Sliver of Brain Matter

"Live a good life. If there are gods and they are just, then they will not care how devout you have been, but will welcome you based on the virtues you have lived by. If there are gods, but unjust, then you should not want to worship them. If there are no gods, then you will be gone, but will have lived a noble life that will live on in the memories of your loved ones." — Marcus Aurelius

Lately I've been having bad dreams about my mother. First some background... I didn't know my mother was really my mother until I was about 5 years old. Until that time, I was raised exclusively by my grandparents. It's a long story, and not one I know all the details about, but I'll just say it was confusing to find out the woman I thought of as mommy was actually my grandmother and the woman who would sometimes babysit us, and seemingly follow us around the country as we moved, was really my mother. This was an ongoing situation--my grandparents would move, and my mother would soon follow several months or even years later. Eventually, we would live with my mother for a while until she couldn't handle taking care of us any more, and we would be shuttled back and forth between mom and my grandparents. Several years ago my mother experienced liver failure as a result of poor health maintenance and a lifetime of alcoholism. I knew my mother drank sometimes, and t...

It's been about 8 months since the last time I wrote something on here! Wow! Well, I just wanted to post that I'm trying to really begin writing again. I just edited 2 poems that I wrote in 2006 and posted them here : http://www.webook.com/project/A-Sliver-of-Brain-Matter I figured why not, right?

It certainly has been a rough couple of weeks. Last week judy went away to a conference and i hardly spoke to her at all. It's been rough. I love talking to judy every day, and when it doesn't happen I get cranky. It also worries me when I don't hear from her and she's far away because I never know if she's ok or not. I know I shouldn't worry, but that's just my personality, I guess, or maybe it's naturaly to worry about the ones you love when you can't be with them? This week? Well, let's just say I blew my top at people who didn't deserve it. However, I'm not too proud to apologize, and I did just that. I just hope my apologies will be accepted. I was going to go into more detail, but that's probably not a good or smart thing right now. I'll just deal with the situation(s) as they arise.

I'm not a mom, obviously, but I do fly Southwest w/family, and we do a lot of travel in the late spring and summer. When you live over 1,000 miles from relatives, sometimes you just gotta do that! So, I'm entering this contest to try to win free family 4-pack of tickets on Southwest airlines, which is my favorite airline, seriously! Have flown any others lately? uggh... Anyway. Enjoy, and thanks for reading! Sorry I haven't updated in a while, it's been super busy here-- you know, planning travel for the summer and stuff!

One step at a time removing e-mail accounts-- yahoo and hotmail-- and "unprofessional" gmail account will now be used for stuff like signing up for stupid stuff that makes you register on the interwebz (stuff like social networks, etc.). trying to eat better and healthier-- this is more difficult. ok, that's two steps. hopefully more to follow shortly!

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