A Sliver of Brain Matter

Covid19 the biggest fear is Unknown the biggest known is fear the unknown fear is biggest

time passes quickly fleetingly look it's gone 15 years gone by a new home a new state a new (soon to be an old) job new friends one day you are 24 and lost alone suddenly you're 47 and found a lovely wife two girls one cat

It’s been 3 years since I last wrote one of these Reflections.  Since then I’ve continued therapy with Ann and come a long way in my understanding of myself. I feel that I’m a much stronger person for it. I also feel that my relationship with Judy was in many ways saved because of the therapy. In fact, 5 and a half weeks ago Judy and I had a baby girl we named Helen Marie. It was a frightening time, but not devastatingly so; just frightening in the sense that Helen’s birth meant being deeply responsible for the life of another human being. She’s beautiful. Everyone says she looks like me, but I see so much of Judy in her. Her eyes, and the way she looks around observing, the way she sleeps and sighs. I love holding her and kissing her little hands and cheeks. Even when she needs a diaper change or is crying non-stop, I can’t stop thinking about being a good father to her and taking care of her. Of course, at times negative thoughts creep back in – “what if” thoughts. ...